5 - Amethyst
Seeker of hidden realms, glowing with arcane wisdom.
Description
The passion of avarice for the E5 revolves around a deep-seated need to conserve what little they believe they possess, both emotionally and intellectually, as a response to an existential sense of loss and disconnection. This avarice manifests as a difficulty in sharing themselves with others, whether through emotions, intimacy, or tangible resources, creating a protective barrier to avoid feelings of vulnerability or fragmentation. Their fixation on isolation further distances them from both their emotional and physical selves, leading them to rely on intellectual pursuits as a substitute for emotional engagement, while relationships become sources of fear and distrust due to the perceived risks of invasion and abandonment.
Traits
Retentiveness manifests in a tendency to hold onto resources, thoughts, and emotions, often leading to a lack of generosity in time, money, and energy. This rigidity is not limited to physical possessions but extends to mental processes, where individuals struggle to let go of ongoing thoughts or transitions. This holding-on behavior creates a subtle mental inflexibility, limiting openness to new experiences and ideas. Such traits often stem from a preference for self-sufficiency and a pessimistic outlook about receiving help or care from others. Retentiveness reflects an underlying fear of loss and a desire to extract every ounce of significance from one environment.
The avoidance of commitment reflects a reluctance to give, driven by a need for freedom and autonomy. Individuals exhibit behaviors that suggest a desire to remain unbound, preserving their resources for future use. This hoarding mentality is both a reflection of avarice and a projection of this trait into the future to prevent being left without. There is also an underlying fear of being consumed or overwhelmed by others, reinforcing the preference for independence. This trait combines a desire for self-possession with a protective stance against perceived threats to autonomy.
Pathological detachment arises from a perceived necessity to withdraw from relationships to preserve limited resources, emotional or otherwise. Individuals with this trait often isolate themselves, valuing solitude over emotional connection, and do not experience significant loneliness due to their resignation to relational difficulties. This detachment involves the repression of relational needs and a reduction of emotional expression, particularly anger. The inhibition of needs and emotions reinforces the distance from others, fostering a schizoid tendency to minimize vulnerability. Ultimately, detachment reflects a deep-seated reluctance to engage due to fears of dependency and loss of autonomy.
The fear of engulfment stems from a suppressed need to relate, combined with an apprehension of dependency on others. This fear drives individuals to avoid relationships and maintain distance, prioritizing personal boundaries over emotional connection. Sensitivity to interference and external demands often leads to self-suppression, as individuals compromise their spontaneity to meet perceived expectations. This results in a strong emphasis on solitude, where they seek to recover their sense of self. The stress of relationships, which alienate them from their authentic needs and preferences, reinforces their withdrawal into aloneness as a protective measure.
Autonomy is both a core need and an idealized trait for those who have given up on relationships. To maintain independence, individuals develop a self-reliant mindset, striving to fulfill their needs without external support. This self-sufficiency is often metaphorically described as building an ivory tower stocked with internal resources. Autonomy is further reinforced by the repression of desires and a philosophy of minimal reliance, valuing thinking, waiting, and enduring as virtues. This idealization helps maintain emotional distance while supporting a lifestyle focused on personal strength and resilience over relational dependence.